Post Court Merc AU 2

[aceofcrows]

[Asahi is in the rifle range, sprawled out on the ground and testing one of his new long range anti-tank guns. He's more serious like this than usual, his expression sharp and on. It's the only time this calm, fierce serenity settles over him, here and on the battlefield. Before he's too anxious, afterwards the adrenaline leaves him a shaky mess of nerves. Even when he's training with others, he's too self conscious to perform adequately. Here though, in the nearly empty range with ear muffs silencing all the rest of the world, he's able to focus. It's his form of meditation, and it leaves him more relaxed and comfortable than almost any other time.]

Comments

[aceofcrows]

... So what did you do?

[shootykawa]

What do you mean, "what did I do"? I did my job. We completed our mission and everyone came back alive.

[aceofcrows]

I mean why's Iwaizumi mad at you?

[he settles down against he wall and grabs Oikawa to pull him down into his lap]

[shootykawa]

[He curls up against Asahi easily.]

Because he thinks I take unnecessary risks.

[aceofcrows]

[tightens his arms around him]

Did you?

[shootykawa]

[He mumbles an answer into Asahi's shoulder.]

[aceofcrows]

[nudges him with his knee]

What was that?

[shootykawa]

[Pout pout.]

I'm only risking myself.

[aceofcrows]

... Don't risk yourself, Tooru. I don't want to lose you.

[shootykawa]

If I hadn't gone in alone we wouldn't have been able to complete the mission.

[aceofcrows]

Do I have to ask him how much danger you were in?

[shootykawa]

You're just going to yell at me too, aren't you?

[aceofcrows]

I don't think so. I'm glad you're back safely, but I don't like the idea of you being reckless.

[shootykawa]

It wasn't reckless. I made the decision to go in alone knowing it was against protocol but it was my team and my mission.

[aceofcrows]

[deep breath in and deep breath out]

And if you had died, or gotten your teammates killed?

[shootykawa]

That's just what happens sometimes in our line of work, isn't it?

[aceofcrows]

And if I or Iwaizumi or any of your teammates had done what you did? Would you say the same thing?

[shootykawa]

[He grabs onto Asahi's arm, hard. The thought panics him.]

No, you're not allowed to die.

[aceofcrows]

[he leans close to breathe in Oikawa's ear]

Iwaizumi and I feel exactly the same way about you, Tooru.

[shootykawa]

[He whines and squirms a little.]

I know... but I can't take it back now.

[aceofcrows]

You can't, but you can try not to do it again.




Please.

[shootykawa]

I'll... try.

[But he knows if he was in the same situation again he would make the same decision.]

[aceofcrows]

[that's why he only asked him to try -- presses a kiss to Oikawa's temple]

I love you.

[shootykawa]

I love you too.

... Sorry for scaring you while you were practicing. I won't do that again.

[aceofcrows]

That... would be good...